THESE...

My appointment was this morning at 11am & I sat for 45 minutes before I get to just listen to my results. The Cystoscopy came back fine, there was no diseases or infections in my bladder and my urine was clear of any blood traces or white cells. My FISH Ultravision Urine Test was supposed to take like 6 wks before coming back and she went to check on it anyways to see if it magically came back early but instead, it was cancelled. Yea. She goes "I dont know why it would be cancelled." I told her I went to CCH for the test and she had me give her a urine sample then she told me I was good to go. She said that I should try and take it to another location this time so I have to go do it again. I went by my moms office with some Quiznos and had lunch with her and explained all this to her and she said that there was a Health First Diagnostic Center right there on Suntree off of Wickham which is what I take each time I go down there. She called the place to make sure and she said that when I go down Suntree to take a left on Wickham and then at the first light is the McDonalds and Jake & Charlie's and it would be in that plaza. So I go down Suntree, I take the left onto Wickham, and I get to the first light... no McDonalds, its the second light, and there are 2 plazas, one has the McDonalds and the other has Jake & Charlie's. So I go into the Jake & Charlie's one first and there was a Laboratory so I go in there and she tells me to go all the way to the end of the plaza, that place tells me to go to a lab. WTF?! So I try the McDonalds plaza. There is an Osler Medical center which is the company that my dr is with. They do labs on Tuesday. Sweet today is Tuesday.... between 8 and 11. Like I said, my drs. appointment was at 11am. She told me to go to US1 and go South towards 192 and I could go to the 5 story Osler Medical Center that does labs till 5pm. Yea... no. By now I was already livid and just wanted to go home. So I'll take my script to Parrish Medical Center in Port on Thursday (my day off) since Ive been needing to go up to get my mail from my dad and spend some time with him. I havent talked to him in a while.

So I had my doctors appointment yesterday to see if they can figure out what the hell is wrong with me so I will, as Tia put it, stop dying!

Anyways. I was supposed to get a catheter. Normally a catheter is supposed to take the fluids out of you. Well not yesterday... *uneasy laugh*.

I got about a bag of saline pumped INTO my bladder. I had to tell the nurse when I felt like I could go pee like before you go on a road trip. I had to tell her when I felt like I just had to pee. And I had to tell her when I felt like I would pull over on the side of the road and pee in a bush.

I would've been fine with an awkward silence. Nope. I get the nurse that wants to make small talk. She apparently, tripped over her dog last night and broke her toe which is why when my appointment was scheduled at 11am, I didn't get called back until 12pm. yea. Oh & I was told to show up with a full bladder... why when they made me empty my bladder there and fill me right back up, I didn't get it.

Anyways. After that awful ordeal, she removed the catheter after having me pee with the catheter in, and let me leave. I have to go back next Friday for the results. Mainly, they wanted to see how much my bladder could hold, and when I emptied it, how much would be left and if what is left possibly is going back up into the tubes that run from the kidneys that could be causing the kidney infections.

So. I left, in pain, I seriously felt like I had a really bad UTI when I left. Ugh. Stupid Drs and their stupid tests. UGH!

After having two kidney infections, one early last year & another early this year, my doctor would really like to know what the hell is wrong with me.
Let's backtrack to April 2008.
I woke up that morning thinking that I slept on my side wrong because it felt like I had been beaten and kicked on the right side of my body. I had to open dreadful Sears shoes that morning and felt like shit! I sat in a chair half the day, luckily it was slow, and it hurt to breathe and walk. Finally, at around 1pm Laura had come in for her shift so I told him I was going to lunch. I clocked out for lunch thinking if I ate something I would feel better. I was starting to feel sick from the pain. I made it halfway to the courtyard and turned around to go back and tell Misty I had to go home! She was doing an interview but when she saw me she told the girl that she would be right back and told me that I looked like shit and I should go home. I definitely didn't argue with that and when I got to Chris', he thought I was just faking it and didn't want to be at work. After talking to my mom, who had called my Dr. for me, she relayed the message telling me to go to the ER. I had 102 fever when I got there and was put in triage. They put an IV in for fluids and added Demoral for pain. (Thank you!) I slept a little and the Dr. came in and told me that my urine sample came back with a lot of bacteria and I probably have a kidney infection with the way I described the pain. After being released from triage and given prescriptions, Chris took my prescriptions to CVS and got them filled, then took me to my parents. I got better after about a week and just had to go back for kidney and bladder ultrasounds to make sure it wasnt kidney stones. Nope. So I went on being healthy.

Flash forward to March 2009.
I woke up that morning with back pain thinking it was just from my period. It wasn't the same pain as last time. It didn't hurt as bad. I took some ib profrien and laid back down with a heating pad. The pain didn't weaken, it kept getting worse. I called my mom in tears telling her how much it hurt and she asked if it could be my kidneys again. I wasn't sure. She told me to just head to their house since my grandfather and her were home. She took care of me and I started to develop a fever. I made sure Chris knew where I was and he was a little upset thinking I was blowing this out of proportion again. I just rested that day and that night my fever went up to 102 and I was having bad chills. My mom starting to think it was just the flu. By the end of the next day I didn't feel much better but I was able to eat a little more. Although, later, it came back up. And by that evening, I had 104 fever. It was time to go to the ER. While my mom got ready to take me to the ER, my fever jumped up to 105. By the time we got to the ER and into triage, my fever was 106! They took me back and the prick of a Dr. didn't even start me on IV. He just wanted me to do a urine sample, which had to be done via cathiter because I was on my period! OUCH! I got nothing for pain or dehydration and my fever could have gone higher if my mom didn't bring cold water with her. My fever was to 104 when I saw the Dr. again. At first, after talking to me, he only thought it was the flu because of my temperature, chills, and leg pain. After the urine analysis, we found it was kidney infection again. Chris had met me in the ER after work. This Dr. was an idiot! Chris diagnosed me before the Dr. even thought of it. Now that's sad. Anyways... after getting the same prescriptions as before, he released me. (Jackass).

Had a follow up with my Dr. and she was concerned that this happened again. Not to mention pissed that for the second time they didn't admit me into the hospital and definitely this time that they didn't give me IV and just gave me a prescription and had me leave. Her thought was that there could be a possibility that I have an extra tube that runs out of one of my kidneys but it doesnt connect anywhere. It's just there and that some bacteria might be there and every once in a while it will flare up causing the chronic kidney infection. Chronic meaning comes on fast and takes a while to get over. Plus with the fact that most kidney infections start with UTI's and I was not having one before hand. So I went to Parrish Medical Hospital in Titusville and had a bladder and kidney ultrasound done and then went to get X-rays and IVP done. IVP is where they put Iodine in my system and it runs through my kidneys and bladder. It's not harmful and It just illuminates through the X-rays. It doesnt do anything to the body. SO. A week after that, I got the results that they were negative and everything was fine and that my Dr. wanted to refer me to a Urologist - someone who specializes in the kidneys, bladder, and everything for the process of urination. Ew, I know! 

Which brings us to, today. I went and saw the PA (Physicians Assistant - knows just as much as a Dr. Can do everything a Dr. can do. Just minus the couple years of college & the title) there and I told her everything. She had me do a urine sample (I hate doing those things) and she said I had no bacteria but I did have a small amount of blood and white cell count (btw that means not. good.) She also had me fill out paperwork so that they could get copies of my bladder and kidney ultrasounds and my x-rays and IVP. Then she scheduled me to come back next Tues to do a UDS (Urine Diagnostic Study) she said that it wasn't going to be very painful. I still wasn't sure what that was.  So when the receptionist was scheduling me she told me that it would be where they used a cathiter to make sure my bladder flowed normally and measure how much is left in my bladder and crap and I was like... cathiter... again... WHY LORD WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO MEEEE!!! ugh. I am so not looking forward to next Tues. & It's at 11am in Melbourne and I'm not allowed to have caffiene for 12 hrs before hand and cant pee 1-2 hrs before my appointment. I have to wake up at 9 and I'm not allowed to pee after that, and I dont get coffee, and I get a cathiter shoved in me.... I will not be a happy camper on Tues. So whoever gets to see me on Tues, will not want to piss me off!!!!! Just a warning.

They better find out what the hell is wrong with me soon. I do not want to deal with this anymore!

UGH!

I'm irked!
I'm happy that one of my favorite books is going to be on TV. And on my favorite network, CW. And on my favorite night, Thursday. And right before my favorite show, Supernatural.
But the one thing that the people that made the show had to do was get the characters in the book right. Just like book to movie, the characters have to pretty much look the same. Same features, same body type, same outfits, same... oh I don't know... HAIR!
The Vampire Diaries has been made into a show, like I said, for the CW next season.
Elena, the main female character, in the book is blond. And on their nice little TV show they have her as a FUCKING BRUNETTE!
The smallest fucking detail shows when people actually read the fucking book! COME ON NOW! UGH!

The Vampire Diaries


Nina Dobrev plays Elena Gilbret
Description of Elena: a beautiful, popular 17-year-old girl with blond hair and blue eyes. (I'm sorry did I miss something here?)


Paul Wesley plays Stefan Salvatore
Description of Stefan: the younger of the two vampire brothers. He is classically handsome, with dark, wavy hair and green eyes. (Ok they kind of got this one right)


Ian Somerhalder plays Damon Salvatore
Description of Damon: Stefan's older brother, brash and arrogant, with dark hair and black eyes. (Dark hair, check, black eyes, hmm missing something? but contacts can fix that. Ok I can live with this one)


Katerina Graham plays Bonnie McCullough
Description of Bonnie: one of Elena's best friends, a bubbly short redhead with brown eyes and a heart shaped face. (Wow... WAYYYY OFF!)
It so happens this girl popped up when I googled a picture for Katerina Graham... this girls name is also Katerina and the sad thing is, she would make a better Bonnie! Better Bonnie

Hm... ok and they totally left out Elena's OTHER best friend Meredith Sulez.


Zach Roerig plays Matt Honeycutt
Description of Matt: Elena's ex-boyfriend, a typical All-American high school quarterback with blond hair and blue eyes. (At least they got one absolutely right)

Candice Accola plays Caroline Truitt (Forbes)
Shes not a big named actress so I couldnt get a googled picture. One thing has already bothered me. The name... in the book its Caroline Forbes on the show its Caroline Truitt.
Description of Caroline: a former friend and current rival of Elena's, she is beautiful with green eyes and auburn hair. (Well the pictures of her on imdb & for the show is that shes blond... with blue eyes so... errr wrong! again!)

Thats pretty much the major people that are in the books but seriously I'm irked beyond control now! I dont think this show is going to last very long if the readers expect it to be close to what the book describes! I'm disappointed already just by looking at the cast!

So I just watched Criminal Minds, Season 4, Episode 20, "Conflict" with a guest star of Jackson Rathbone.
He plays a character by the name of Adam Jackson who works a hotel and has a split personality of Amanda.
He did such an amazing job with this that I believe I love him more now than I ever did during the Twilight movie or Twilight EyeCon.
GOD, hes amazing. *shudder, drool*
But, even a girl at EyeCon said this and I agree, Jackson made a pretty girl. lol. I'm sure if I would have just seen the one part of him dressed as a girl and didnt know he was in the show or anything, his big green eyes would have given him away & the adams apple of course, but, I was impressed!

So, of course I am totally behind on posting this but it really doesnt matter since you're the only one that reads this, Tia. But anyways... I had a fuckin awesome blast with Tia Mother's Day weekend at EyeCon. Although, we slightly got jipped Saturday night, I think. Here's how the weekend went:

Saturday:
9 AM - Drove to Orlando and took the longest fuckin way to get to the Florida Mall. We accidently took the turnpike a drove back around the Mall of Milenia and finally found the hotel. lol. fun though. & Tia always says that every time she tries to go to the Florida Mall she ends up at the Mall of Milenia. lol. Anyways... stood in line for general admission tickets, took a peek at the game room, Tia met a hottie named Mark, and then we hit up the line for photo op tickets after I bugged Tia.

10:30 AM (more like 11) - Then we hit up the Q&A with Peter Facinelli.


11:30 AM (supposed to be more like 12 - 12:30)- We got a picture with the Cullen Brothers - Jasper (Jackson Rathbone) & Emmett (Kellan Lutz) and that was just awesome. Froggy was in a bad mood because they were running so far behind and was distracted after we came in so I got to hold on to Jackson for a lil bit longer and Tia got to hold on to Kellan (our husbands... in the book of course... wellll... jk). Jackson smelt good *grin*. I have to get a scanner hooked up to my computer and put the pics up later. They were both such sweethearts and after Jackson got Froggy's attention "Hey Froggy!" I got a nice, almost Dont Go glide across my lower back from Jackson, that sent shivers down my spine. I was not happy about the photo though. Of course, the guys looked amazing and my big ear was showing. I was determined to come back Sunday and get better pics. So after the photo ops we had some down time to chill in the game room.

3 PM - Then it was off to Edi Gathegi's Q&A.


4 PM -Then came the autograph session. Tia had gotten a picture of Kellan for an autograph for her friend and I hung back to get a couple pics of Kellan and Jackson signing autographs. Apparently, Kellan was engulfed in his cartoon version of a monkey he was drawing on the table....


6:30 PM - We didnt buy tickets for the Banquet so we went down to the restaurant and ate while Tia decided to mess with me (my back was to the entrance) and act like any of the actors were walking in every couple of minutes.. and I kept falling for it.

9:30 PM - We also didnt get tickets to the concert but I heard enough to know that I wish I did buy tickets. I also saw Edi walk into the concert, right by me, and I hardly noticed... then, after I was slightly bored with Rock Band, I walked out to wait for Tia to come back from the bar (after I stole her drink) and Kellan walks right by me into the game room. Of course, I turned my happy ass right back around and headed in & behind me, a hoard full of girls. So I went back to Rock Band and Kellan (later joined by Peter) played some game on Wii, two tables down from me. And the hoard of girls surrounding them. I'm surprised they could breath! 

11:30 PM - It was time for the After Party... so why was there barley anybody in the hotel... The gameroom was as empty as when the concert was goin on. Me & Tia walked around thinking they were still chillin in the conference room... nope. So where did everyone go?

Technically Sunday: 1:10 AM - I finally begged Tia to leave and we didnt onto 528 until around 1:30 AM because we got a little lost. Well, ok... I drove way past the 528 ramp and passed a real life "The Fast and The Furious" moment... an entire parking lot of supped up cars was tryin to leave with cops following them and they were hauling ass in every direction. I remember the days when I wanted a car that was all supped up and I wanted to know everything about them... obviously that never happened with the ponti-crap I drive, SO, I stopped in the middle of OBT and let most of these cars just drive off. It's not like the cops could arrest me. I didnt want to get hit! lol But anyways... got home around 2:30 and passed the FUCK out. 

Sunday:

8AM - My alarm went off like I wanted it to and I called Tia who said "Give me a half hour" I was more than abliged to do that. I set my alarm and went back to sleep. What I thought was 5 min later, my alarm went off and I called her only to find out that she actually got up when I called so I told her to give me 10 min & Id be there. It was my turn to drive and I had to run by the bank for more cash & then found out I had to run up to my dads house to drop something off. Great. But the best part, he gave me $100! sweet! 

9:20 AM - already on 528 and heading to Orlando. Freakin awesome! Had to rush though, this day was short.

10:30 AM - Convention already open and we had to jump in line for our general Sunday & after saying "Hi" to Mark, had to jump in the photo op line for the individual photos with Jackson & Kellan.

11AM - We started with the Individual with Kellan (apparently, no one could find Jackson) and we actually picked up some donuts for Froggy. Tia had a couple drinks with him Sat night and he was sayin how pissed he was and how Sunday would be better cuz less screamin girls. So, we told Manny (head of EyeCon) and he said just drop them off with him and he'd give them to Froggy. When it was our turn with Kellan, we told Froggy right off the bat that we got him some donuts. Kellan perked up and said "Are they Krispy Kream?!" We were like "YEAAA!" & Kellan said "I've always wanted to work there." It was very interesting. But Froggy said thanks about the donuts, we told him Manny was keeping them safe, and we headed back around for Jackson's photo op. Apparently, he still hadnt been found so we wandered over to the game room.

12 PM - I played a couple songs on Rock Band (which I now really want to buy) and then we hoped back over to the photo op room where we waited with, and talked to, other obsessed fans. We also got our photo of Kellan that was developed already.


As the group photos died down, Jackson's line started to creep up to the front (they found him). As this was happening, Kellan slipped out. But not unseen by us.
(crappy phone photo w/e)

We went and took our photo with Jackson, and I swear, I got a double take from him and an exceptionally long "Heyyyy" from him. Oh so dreamy.

1PM - Then we had to go ahead and go into Jackson's Q&A. He only had a couple girls after us and it wouldnt take long. Tia sat with me for a little bit but she had already wanted to just hang out in the game room for these Q&As. Which I was slightly happy because, I got a little fangirl-ish while I was there. I couldnt help it! Found out where everyone went Sat night too. Apparently, I was not told this & it wasnt on the damn schedule but the after party was at Ruby Tuesdays (one of my fav restaurants) with 100 Monkeys, Jackson, & Kellan & we missed it. Damn! And while I was there, Kellan popped into the game room right before he went on, while Tia was in there, and talked to her for a lil bit. LUCKY.

2PM - Right after Jackson's was Kellan's and he was just hysterical! I loved it. Once again, I went fangirl-ish. He told us to check out a new movie coming out that he is in, Warrior. Ashley Greene is also in it. He teased us a little bit though. He said, and I quote, " You have to check it out. I'm all sweaty. I just get out of the shower." By now the whole room is full of screams and whoots and hollars and the host is like "Ok, ok, you are getting them too excited, calm down now." And to add to that, Kellan goes "I'm full frontal!" We ALL start screaming at this point. We were worse than 12 year olds around the Jonas Brothers! It was that bad. But damn! I would LOVE to see Kellan full frontal. Show me whatchya workin wit! lol. But, unfortunetly, he added, "Just kidding." damn. And while I was in there, Jackson was in the vendor room gettin another tattoo and Tia walked in there and saw him... once again.... LUCKY!

well after that, I had to bring Tia back, who had to pick up her friend from work and go back out there to talk to Mike about Battle-con for them to be in costume for. Luckies! Anyways... I guess as soon as they got there, Kellan and Jackson had to haul ass to the airport and Tia helped Manny pack up the van for them to go. Well, Manny forgot his camera, so, he borrowed Tia's. And the out come were these. (YES Tia, I stole them.)


Now that is a profession I need to get into!
Anyways, awesome weekend. Had fun. Spent way too much. Now I'm OFFICIALLY & UNREVOCABLY broke as FUCK! But my mom was jealous of me & thinks they are just hot as fuck! lol I dont blame her! But anyways... had fun, cant wait till September, Edi's already comin back and the tattoo artist is gonna be there again. Hopefully I'll have a job and money to get a tat while Im there. It'll hurt like hell but I can say "I got this tattoo done while at the Twilight EyeCon Sept 09!" lol hopefully. One can only dream.
All in all... I'm jealous of Tia, and I wish I couldve talked to these guys more other than "hey, hows it goin - *cheese* click - done"

One more thing...

I read something wise today and it truly made me think.

"As the present is left in our wake, slowly disintegrating into a trail of moments and memories, evaporating into the vast nothingness that is the past, like the tail of a comet behind us, so too does the future sprint towards our face at a lightning bolt's pace. Pause for a second and contemplate your life 10 years ago or 10 months ago. Where you were… Who you were. Ponder how vivid those memories are. How it all seems like yesterday. How forever didn't once seem so long and how tomorrow once appeared to be a lifetime away. How so much has transpired yet it seems like nothing happened. How so often you felt trapped, time froze and one day melted in the monotonous next, yet it all went by in the blink of an eye. Waste not another second, not another opportunity… Dream not of a better tomorrow. Embrace the now, no matter how grim or challenging. Focus on today and all that it promises from the grimmest and most challenging to that which brings endless bliss and joy. This day that has finally arrived will soon be gone forever as will the future you've so long envisioned. Like these fleeting moments, you too will soon pass away. If it all ended now, what would your life be worth? What will your contribution have been? If it were all over in this very instant, how would you be remembered? Time will tell."

Then I had to think, what if my life went a different path? What would my life be like? And then I have to think, what if my life did go down that path? I wouldn't be who I am and where I am today. My life would be 100% different if I chose different paths rather than the ones I took. I'm happy that I have chosen the paths that have led me to where I am. Everyday, someone thinks, What if? What if, I had been there that one time to stop that one thing? What if, I didn't do that? What if, I had just said this? We think "What if?" not because we regret the choices that we have made in our lives but because we are curious. Our life is constantly about decision making and even those with Ph.D's wonder what their lives would be like if they had done something different just that one time. I'll give an example of a "What if" that I constantly think about.

What if, I had talked to Jon that Friday? And asked him to come hang out like I had originally wanted. But instead, I went back to work and stayed the night at Chris' house only to find the next morning that I had lost my best friend.

Then, after asking a "What if" you shift to the "maybe". This is where you start to wonder what would have come from that decision that you could have made.

Maybe, if I had talked Jon into hanging out with me that night, maybe he would still be here today. Maybe, he would have stayed the night at Chris' too and my best friend would still be here.

We all have our different versions of "What if's". But know that it is never out of regret for your life. Ponder this. Ponder life. Know that the next time you think "what if" know that it's followed with a "maybe" and then followed by a "then I wouldnt be where I am today". Just one tiny moment in my life can change who, what, & where I am today.

That could be why I go with the motto of "Everything happens for a reason"
We choose the paths we take because we know inside they are the right ones whether we think about it later and wonder "what if" you didnt make that decision & picked a different one.

Thats my epiphany for tonight... (Thnx Ben)

lovin this!!!

yay ok some of my questions from Day 1 were answered with this... Part 1


Part 2

Cradle robbing should not be a crime if you look this good.... DAMN!



the glare & the biting of the lip and the ohhhhh *DROOL*

So here are some of the stuff they have like an updated cast list with pictures.

http://www.etonline.com/gallery/2009/04/72879/index.html

but I have to watch it tonight at 11:30 because I FORGOT ABOUT IT! and it was on at 7pm.... wtf?!

update later

12am -now 11/24 (& 1month & 2 days until my 21st birthday thought id throw that in there)

so... AHHHHH SON OF A BITCH
i got it wrong... wrong fuckin channel... wrong fuckin time... I FUCKIN MISSED IT!!!
but THANK YOU other obsessed twilight saga fans who tape the damn thing & put it on youtube! I THANK YOU!


ET NEW MOON FEATURE - DAY 1 PART 1


ET NEW MOON FEATURE - DAY 1 PART 2

few things....
1. apparently tomorrow night will be about the new 'Robsten' romance (yes I said it. Robert + Kristen = Robsten. dont quote me... news.popstar.com/Article/865) must find out where ET is & what time........

2. REALIZATION: while showin clips from Twilight, I realized that they didnt really go into depth on Bella's dream about Edward and Jacob at the beach. You know, the one where Jacobs in the woods and yells run Bella but she is drawn to Edward and then she hears Jacob scream & then hes gone & a big animal replaces him.... well... since they didnt go into that... how the fuuuuuuuck, is she gonna have this dream that makes her realize what Jacob is?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! is she gonna Google it again?!?!?!?! DAMN YOU CATHERINE HARDWICK AND YOUR ABILITY TO LEAVE LOTS OF IMPORTANT KEY POINTS OUT!!!!!!! (another example: Alice & Bellas growing relationship! Alice is the one that saw Bella become one of them!)

3. Eclipse is to be done & in theaters by June 2010... yea... ok Ill believe it when I see it. (link from #1 is where you will also find the Eclipse dish)

4. Supernatural tonight was awesome!

I think I just had a heart attack... & I cant stop hyperventilating!

*Insert Fan Girl Squee Here*
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok so yes my Easter has offically sucked for me but Happy Easter to everyone else. I wont go into a huge story of why I had a messed up Easter but the gist my father's a ragging pill taking, beer drinking, idiot! yea that sums it up.

Anyways, for the good news... *GASP*
I found out who's gonna play Aro in New Moon!

**drum roll**

MICHAEL SHEEN!! AH!! I'm excited! (aka Lucian in the Underworld series)

New Moon Director Chris Weitz says, "Michael’s role is so important because he’s the head of all vampires. Aro is, on the surface, a very gracious and friendly vampire, but beneath that he is a tremendous threat."



of course Michael Sheen is on the left and his character, Lucian from Underworld, is on the right.
But think of New Moon, think of Aro when we first meet him in Volterra, and look at Michael Sheen.. GENIUS!


Chris Weitz is so far doing the movie justice with the cast that he is picking and keeping Taylor on as Jacob is good... although I have yet to figure out how they are going to make him look so tall... stilts?!

Today has been one year since I have see my best friend. I miss him. I miss his advice, I miss his smile, his voice, his laughter, his... everything! I just miss my friend. So I put something together to remember him by.

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Jonathon Michael Vuick 5/27/88 - 4/4/08
Gone but never EVER forgotten!
We love you!

With my ever growing obsession of the Twilight world, I am constantly waiting and looking for a trailer of some REAL kind of New Moon. Granted, I am amused with those who have tried to create their own! But I would rather get excited over the real thing. But as I was saying.. my ever growing obsession leads me to imdb.com every other day. So... getting to my point... while looking over the news for any signs of a trailer I come across this little tid-bit about the newest cast member.

As every other Twilight obsessed fan would know... the Volturi are practically the royal family of vampires. You really don't want to piss them off or they will probably send their wives after you. The three, Marcus, Caius, & Aro are the head of Volturi. They are almost depected as gods almost looking of either greek mythology or something biblical. So... answer me this... why? why is this little boy playing as Caius! I understand that they are supposed to be immortalized in their youth but... we don't know when they were originally changed... but STILL... at least someone who doesnt look 16!!!!! (Jamie Campbell Bower: He played in Sweeny Todd)

weirdest. dream. EVER!
BUT AWESOME!
I'll explain... ahem...

I have no fuckin clue what building we were in but I know it was for a Supernatural convention and there was a shit ton of girls in this tiny ass building and some guys. So me and Tia were there (of course) and so was my friend Lisa... which is strange cuz she doesnt watch the show... well we saw Jensen Ackles and Jared Padalecki walking around but no girls did anything. No fan girl squee... nothing. But, of course, for a dream this was all normal (now it makes no sense at all). It's kind of fuzzy between here and what happened next.

So, me, Tia, and Lisa go to the bathroom and the next thing we know there are all these girls facing the back wall of the bathroom giggling and chatting. Then I see Jensen and Jared pinned against the back wall half naked. Obviously, I try and push my way up to the front to get a better look. Nope, cuz my dream created a girl wall you couldnt pass. So I told Lisa to lift me up (which in reality she would complain & say no & say she couldnt but..) she did it without saying anything. And there it was....!!!!!!!

***the gates of heaven open and angels start to sing***

yea thats right my imagination is AWESOME! I probably shouldnt write this on livejournal but whatever it was hot!
my imagination created what Jensen and Jared's junk would look like and well.... (for some reason, really idky my imagination did this one)... they were pierced... prince albert style! & I found it soooo hot (in my dream... reality.. its kinda gross & just plain OUCH) but anyways the point was I got to see Jensen & Jared naked! (even though it was just a dream!)

THE END!

Now... for the dream that followed...

I was back in high school... so strange but I think I know why I keep having this one... anyways...
I was talking to some old friends and some enemies... i had a few... well some tried to start shit and I said try me so we get out of school and they all go for their... bicycles! HA I laughed because I had a MOTORCYCLE! So i head down with my helmet in hand and jacket on and cant find my bike (which in my dream was chris' bike) and I walk around and around and its gone. Of course I start screaming "someone stole my bike" and everyone is laughing at me. I turn around and Chris is there & he's got the bike in the back of his truck (which now that I remember... it wasnt his truck... the truck in my dream was red his is green... weird) I yell at him for taking my bike and he's like fine then here & it pops up on the ground and im already on it.. (damn dreams) So, I actually knew how to drive this thing! WHOO HOO! So i went around driving it doin wheelies and stoppies next to everyone one their bicycles and their like whoa cool! I LOVED IT!

and then i woke up cuz i majorly had to pee...

have to go run errands for my mom today so i have to go and actually get dressed... damn.. i dont think i have any undies left.. spankies it is! dont judge me... today is supposed to be laundry day!

1st... i just watched the new(er) trailer of Harry Potter & The Half Blood Prince & got very excited! I cant wait. So now I have this!

2nd... I wanted to talk about the very weeeeeeeeeird dream I had last night... not like any others that Ive had before.... wasn't even thinking about anything remotely close to what my dream became...

I had a sex dream about Dr. Cox from Scrubs.... yea... I even remember thinking about how I cheated on Chris with Dr. Cox.... like I said... WEIRD! For reference... here is Dr. Cox aka John McGinley (which btw I just found out hes 50... so ew +weird)

thats what i said!
lol not really... anyways...
officially unemployed... going to sign up for unemployment tomorrow
went to the beach today to meet up with some of the other unemployed circuit city & stayed there for 2 & 1/2 hrs
needless to say... i got burnt... bad
but every season has to have one bad burn before you can move on to nice tans so thats what i have now
next ill be tan.. then 2 days later white again lol
but i left the beach about 3ish came home & showered the passed out
was supposed to meet everyone @ circuit city for our final "bye bye circuit city" dodgeball game and i missed it cuz well
1. i was tired as fuuuuck
2. i was burnt as fuuuuck
3. i realized that being burnt as fuck means if i was pegged by a dodgeball means... PAIN LOTS OF PAIN & 
4. if i went i would have been made fun of for being a lobster... so no

so i didnt go and slept and now i feel like a sick person cuz im tired and can barley move and am watching tv
i might just go pass out but chris isnt here so its gonna be hard to sleep...